I woke up feeling down this morning. On the edge of tears actually. I didn’t know the source of the sadness, I just knew it was there. I have been walking with the Lord long enough to know that sitting with Him is what my soul longed for. I needed some one-on-one time with my Dad. But when I sat down, physically, to be with Him my spirit didn’t connect right away. I felt alone not like my time with Him usually feels. I was distracted, conflicted, still down. I opened His Word but even that fell flat, dry. It wasn’t refreshing and refilling like I know it can be.
Have you ever felt this way?
It comes on so quickly doesn’t it? Or so it seems. But when I looked back at my last 2 weeks I saw busyness. I had neglected my relationship with my Lord. Sure, I had spent some time in His Word but I hadn’t sat at His feet and spent time ‘with Him’. I have good reasons/excuses. We had wonderful friends and family staying with us. It kept us busy visiting, seeing sights, and entertaining. It was wonderful, don’t get me wrong. But I neglected spending quality time with Papa and I am feeling the consequences of it.
But the goodness of the Lord is He never leaves us (Duet. 31:6b) and as soon as we turn our face towards Him He is quick to respond. Daniel 3:21 reads “while I was still speaking in prayer, the (man/male of God) Gabriel, whom I had seen in the vision previously, came to me in my extreme weariness about the time of the evening offering.” I experienced something similar this morning. As soon as I prayed and asked Holy Spirit to refresh me and fill me my connection with my Lord returned. His peace covered me and I felt His love. I opened a prayer book that I read to a random page and it spoke specifically to something that has been heavy on my heart.
Friends, Jesus is real. He is alive and He is close and personal.
Jesus said in John 7:27-39 “Now on the last day, the great day of the feast, Jesus stood and cried out, saying, “If anyone is thirsty, let him come to Me and drink.The one who believes in Me, as the Scripture said, ‘From his innermost being will flow rivers of living water.’” But this He said in reference to the Spirit, whom those who believed in Him were to receive;”